Dad will most likely be having his triple bypass surgery Friday, though his blood thinner has tapered off leaving his system this last day or so. I was not able to get home to see him, which was very hard to accept. I got very sick with some stupid viral thing, complete with chills and whole body aches. It was insane. 2x we got in the van to head home, but a leaking coolant system and bald tires, along with my hurting just sitting there, sent us back to the house the first time. The second time I was so very ready to go, but had to face the reality that I would not be allowed to see him being this sick… so why drive the 2 days drive just to sit nearby in some waiting room, quarantined from anyone seeing my dad for only 2 days, then drive the 2 days back. Talking with my dad on the phone after the 1st attempt, he said “you need to listen to God’s 2×4 sweetie.” See?? I just love my dad! My mother said “listen to the signs girlie.” So we stayed here.
I am so very thankful to have such a rich heritage! I also had a peaceful encounter with God while I lay in bed whining about not getting to go. As I was praying a not so holy prayer, I realized something. My pastor’s wife is always saying hold the things of this world loosely, because ultimately, it all belongs to God. I realized that I do tend to hold my family fairly firmly. My hubby, my children, my parents, my sisters…I just don’t want God to take any of that from me. I turned my family in to an idol that I put above my love and faith of God. This is a bad thing. It’s not bad to love your family, and I will protect and defend my children with my life if necessary! But they are ultimately God’s, just as my father with his 3 seriously blocked arteries is God’s. It was a wonderful moment and a calming one for me. I also have the added peace that I will see my folks in heaven again, and that is going to be for a whole lot longer than this fleeting time on earth! Praise God!!
Now you have been updated 😉 I have had one horrible week. I have not had a lick of coffee and no cold cereal with milk 😦 Nothing tastes good to eat, super bummer! But I am feeling peaceful in my heart. I did get to skype with my dad last night and just got to look at him and hear him laugh… it was wonderful!! I so appreciate this computer age!!